A new life again
The phone rings and I can't find the dammed thing! Eh, I wish I were a little neater. Oh I’ll let it go to voice mail. Time to get ready for work.
The shower has no hot water this morning! I'm so complaining to the manager! After an ice cold shower and running to dry and puts some clothes on I’m thinking how I wish the heater weren't broken. Still, the beautiful day awaits me and imp enthralled to start this day right.
Breakfast was served, eating with the captain! Captain crunch berries the only childish thing I would allow myself to have. After all if I were to start new I could never let anyone know the past. Time for work... I grab my OJ to go.
Leaving my apartment in a slight hurry to be on the road. A black shadow I called lucky 13. I drove to work fast with no problems; the city was hectic, but it didn’t affect me. Besides I had a job I enjoyed. I was a painter, well I paint houses and properties and such I’ll get an occasional mural, but I painted. That's all that matters right?
My first job was a church, apparently some teens had defiled a mural and it needed to be "touched up" if it's all bad I might convince them to redo the whole thing. That's is if it can't be retouched.
I went through my day like a breeze. All the appointments scheduled for the day were done. I got paid and my office was nice and quiet. I loved being my own boss. I loved my new life just not.... dam it...
There she walked in again. Lina hadn't stopped pursuing me since I got here.
"Hey gorgeous. How bout some lunch?" she said with a dangerous gleam in her eye.
"Oh, I’m sorry Lina I’m kind of busy right now with my business you know I got to keep the customers happy." I lied through my teeth I just couldn't hurt her. I felt like she was just like me. Well my formal self at least, but I’m not like that anymore and I can't be around people who are.
"That's ok sugar. I brought a picnic lunch we can eat right here.” she smiled and was replying with such accomplishment.
"Goody..." I smiled.
It was a fantastic lunch to my surprise. The chicken salad had my favorite cheese and dressing, blue cheese with extra feta. The pie she brought was cherry, my second favorite and it was freshly baked. Her choice of drinks kind of surprised me how could she have known my favorite soft drink was root beer? How could she know so much about me anyways? I forgot about it I couldn't let her catch on I thanked her for a good lunch. She still wouldn't leave.
"Is there something else Lina?" I asked her as her gaze was making me so nervous.
"Ray, do you wana go out tonight?" she asked excitedly and awaited my reply with eyes shut almost.
"Well Lina, it's kinda complicated.” Speaking cautiously, I had to keep her away. I still needed to settle in and not get involved with anyone.
"I'm still very much involved with my girlfriend back home. It wouldn't be right to take advantage of your kindness and betray her trust right?" I could tell she wouldn't take no for an answer already.
"We could go out as friends. I've noticed you don't really get out much and you haven't met a single guy friend. Maybe I’ll we can go hang out and you can meet some new people." She bit her lip to keep from ranting on.
"Ok Lina, you win where do we meet?" I said in disbelief of my own words.
She grinned big "I'll pick you up at 7pm. you can't back out now ok?" she smiled and left. Wow, I might be in for a world of pain.
I felt a giddy getting ready. Oh wow so it wouldn’t take much till I could be my old self? I looked in the mirror and saw my old self. I loathed myself; I’m different now it's better this way. Still in the back of my mind I felt myself returning to my old ways. No! Your name is Ray you paint for a living! You've been here almost a year, adjust! You left everything behind even you’re You are no longer that person and no one will know where you are now! What a pep talk right?
Coming out the steaming shower, the handy man was such a lifesaver and I guess that call in the morning got answered immediately, and getting dressed in my best shirt and slacks. Would anyone I knew then be in town tonight? Let's not worry.
Beep! Beep! BEEEEEEEP! The impatient Lina was in the front. I got my wallet, keys, and cell phone and off I was into the darkness of the hallway and into the night.
I couldn't believe my eyes Lina drove a mustang. Fire truck red! Sweet ride. She got out the car to greet me; my jaw couldn't drop any lower. She was beyond words of beauty. Aphrodite would probably be jealous. If it wasn't enough the man riding with her was definitely godlike. Was that her boyfriend, had I thought wrong this whole time?
Lina introduced me to her brother. Dam I couldn't help it. How could I hide the bisexual in me? I would take either or both at this moment my hormones raging and yet I found myself back to reality shook his hand."Do I ride with you or follow you?" I smirked, I'm sure she noticed.
"Ride with me.,” said her brother, "her crazy driving will get us killed and it's my car." We laughed Lina blushed.
I decided to grab my bike. It was safer this way so temptation didn't rise and I would protect myself from the old tendencies. The bar scene was good. I had a few drinks, danced with Lina, I got all sorts of numbers guys who wanted to hang out girls who wanted to date me and more jobs. None of that mattered at the end of the night I said goodnight and went home. Lina asked if she could make sure I got there. I told her I'd call her and let her know.Home at last. Kept my promise and she didn't sound satisfied with that. Well neither was I. I needed to play the part of being in a relationship. I got into the shower and really looked at my reflection in the mirror. I was Ray now, but who I was in the past was also there in the reflection of the mirror. It was those dark eyes and hair I could never bring myself to change entirely. So I cut my long hair and bandaged my Brest down and became Ray. I cried, in my reflection I saw my scars. What happened was in the past now. I covered my body and lay down in bed. Feeling my skin damp and my touch soft as a lover. I feel asleep feeling like the woman I was, whom I still desired to be. Deep inside I was still Lydia and very much bisexual. In all honesty I was still very much in love with the girl from my past but I already died to them and it shall remain that way.
The next morning was a pain. Thank god I’m closed on weekends. Well at least the office was. I had two appointments today, but it was early yet and I had enough time to get over a slight hang over.
To my surprise some one was at the door. I'm not dressed or rather my boobs aren’t hidden! Dam who could it be? I ran to my bedroom to wrap up my nice sized breast into a manly chest. I'm coming hold on. What a mess I had here. I opened the door it was Lina. She pushed herself past my arm and inside the room.
"Wow, You need a woman's touch Hun." She said a little disgusted.
"Yea, I was getting around to it when you knocked and well since I wasn't dressed I went and got something on." wrong thing to say I bet.
"You didn't have to get dolled up on my account handsome." she replied grinning with I want sex written in her eyes.
"Well thanks for checking up on me but I got to get this cleaned up then I have to work." she looked disappointed my thoughts rushed one after another. No one would know. Would they? I smiled as she left. I closed my door and pressed against the coolness of it in relief.
The process was something I was familiar with, cleaning. I neglected the housework so it could catch up to my new life choice. I found my cordless phone. I had one missed call and one message. I played it.
"Hello Lydia, How are things for you now? Did you think I wouldn’t find you? Well It took this long but I got you now and this time there’s no escape." this was bullshit!
He found me! Which means she was working with him to find me. We were all partners in a past life but I can't stand there and let him take all the credit for my hard work. When I would no longer draw and paint the new designs he became angry. When we left him he became violent. He wouldn't let us go. She was his only family and he used that against her. So I left her. That night I broke up with her and worse I faked my death for insurance money so she could believe I was gone. I am gone. I am going to jail.
"Hello this is Ray. I'm sorry to have to cancel with you today but I had unexpected visitors drop in. I hope we can reschedule. Please call Monday and we can get you in a priority appointment." both my appointments were understanding and agreed.
Now what to do? Wait for them? How had they found me? My only thought was to be with her. Where they here? Had my past had caught me up? Weren't they? The footsteps outside the door were loud and then a knock at the door was expected now. I almost shrieked.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"Ray, it's Lina." I came to the door. Opened it a crack.
"Hey Lina, did you need something?" she shoved her way through and marveled at the spotless studio.
I looked at her and closed the door. My world's colliding any second, past and present and what could I do about it? Absolutely nothing. I sat down with on the couch and she quickly took a seat next to me. She put her head on my shoulder and I let her. Lina put her hand on my chest and felt the bandage. She said nothing. Then she reached lower I was rather aroused by now. Not that it would surprise her at least. It surprised me. It had been a while since I’d been with someone. Things could go either way right now.
Some one knocks on the door and Lina jumps back. Now it's them. Jack and my beloved Jane. They are twins, boy and girl looking very much alike, but not. Jane is standing there alone she jumps in my arms in a passionate kiss that sends Lina out the door no words exchanged. Before I know it Jane is tearing my clothes and the bandage off with ease. In my bed we cuddled. Holding each other safely.
"Is Jack here too?" I whispered.
"No, not yet." Jane smiled at me. Kissed my lips and stroked my hair.
"Was that your new girl?" she asked a little hurt.
"No babe, she wants to be, but would never be." how do I keep her with me? I want her to stay but she would never leave him and he nearly killed me himself the first time around.
"Am I in danger?" I asked like a dumb ass.
"No." she smiled still.
What to do now? Wrapped in her arms it didn't matter. She lay on top of me and warmed my body up. I had missed her. She ran her fingers through my hair and starred into my eyes. Jane was amazingly beautiful as I remembered.
"We have to face Jack you know. This time you won't be alone. I'll be there." She looked at me fearlessly.
"Ever since you left I’ve planned, I’ve changed and now I’m ready to die as you have and leave it all behind." Lina kissed me in between each word.
Then it's time to plan and arrange things. Before Jack comes.
That night I was in bliss. I had never experienced the emotion behind the actions of love. It was powerful, dangerous, and wonderful in every way. She was never bothered by my difference. It was her brother who thought I was a freak. Jack said he'd tell the whole world what I was and that no one would buy my work. I believed him. I was a hermaphrodite. Unlike the ones that have some aspect or another, I had it all. The best of both worlds. Jane loves me not because of what I am but for who I am. Jack was a no talent asshole and he needed me to keep getting rich. He said, "what’s yours is mines and what 's mines is yours lil sis." I hated that he took over all of what I created. I was a freak and I didn't want to be humiliated. My sweet Jane shunned by her family. I wouldn't ask it of her. Now I could make things right.
Jack was here I tried to talk to him. He was mad. Jane was with me and clung to me as to prevent the world from shattering. We started to fight. He brought out a knife. I tried reasoning with him.
"Jack, why are you trying to hurt me? I'm still Lydia and at one point you loved me right?" I knew he'd loved me.
"Shut up! Lydia I would've made you happy. You were never supposed to fall in love with Jane! She's a girl, you’re a girl. You chose her over me? Then you leave me when our small company needs you the most!" Jacks veins bursting it seems. Oh man what to do? Jane talked to him
"Jack I love you. You’re my brother older by 5 minutes. That makes me your little sister. Why don't you put that down and we can talk." She walked towards him slowly and he wrapped his arms around her dropping the knife.
Then a loud bang was heard along with a thud to the floor. What happened? Jack was bleeding the fresh bullet wound in his chest but who shot him? Jane lunged towards me and we crashed to the floor. Jane was hit. Flames burst in from the front door and we had to get out. Down the fire escape we went watching out for the shooters.
Jane says, "Lydia, Jack owed a lot of money. That's why he needed you."
We were being chased. I know the winding paths and I take them sharply. We need to get away.
I scream Jane I love you! Trust me hold on tight. We jump off the path and into the night sky. We land on the roof of an old shack and come to a hard fall on the ground.
I'm ok where's Jane? I get to her and her wound is still bleeding. She may be loosing a lot of blood. On foot we'll get nowhere and the bike is wrecked. I had to steal. I broke into a car and hot-wired it. They're behind us again. Shots are fired I hear sirens in the distance.
Speeding away I know we will make it to the hospital we got to make it. Those people on our trail. We get off the path and take a short cut. Jane in the back, in pain and I’m driving like a professional stunt man. Taking a ramp diving right into the hospital parking lot and getting jane taken care of.
My phone rings.
"All we want is the money or we kill the girl."
"In the studio, under the bed the safe combination 12-34-09 and forget we ever exisited."
"I'll be back Jane, you'll be safe."
I break into my own office take the money out the safe and call in a favor.